~~rainy day~~

day by day....
really hard to act...."nothing"....
still laughing..hanging...chatting...watching...busying...texting...gaming...sporting...(things tat can make me real tired and without using my brain...)
but...sth is still in deep of my mind.....
nv want to think...ask...look...or even touch it...
i'm scare??ya..maybe....
cz i know..if i made one mistake...it's all done...OVER...
wat i alway said":just let it end la..."
but in deep....i'm not....i really don want it happen...
but.....


really damn

p.s.if it's necessary....i will.....